Apathy sets in...

I am beyond frustration. Life has become almost meaningless. I get up, make Bowen's lunch, drive him to school, come home and scour monster.com, dice.com, hotjobs.com for anything new, clean the house... If it's Sunday I get up early and get all the Sunday papers from Hartford, New Haven, New London and look through them after church to see if there's anything.

There's never anything...

Each week I send out resumés, emails, online applications - and it all feels like it's for nothing.

On top of this, I am starting to get hassled by my ex for Lynsey's health insurance running out...

I wish my life would get started again. I'm tired of waiting for it to wake up.